its time

So I write this post with many many emotions... and can not really even begin to write many of the thoughts. But tonight I will nurse Maddox for the last time. Quite possibly nurse for the last time ever in my life. However, its time. I need to stop and be done. I want to stop, I really don't like it for many reasons but I also get nostalgic towards the end... and this time around the end is so much sooner then it was with Ava. But Maddox is huge and eats so much and likes the bottle and formula. I know breast is best... I do I do and I did it for 2 days shy of six months and I pray that Maddox stays healthy and continuing to thrive, however I think I can be a better mama if i put the boobs away. so we will see how it goes. And well then its time to reclaim my body as of the morning.

ava rides Sandy

been a while

I know I have kind of jumped ship when it comes to this blog.... and well it was one of my new years resolutions to get a little better about it... and well you know, recycle more, drink less diet coke, loose the baby weight, keep up better with laundry etc and well some how two kids really gives me very very little time to sit down at the computer and if I get half a min its usually to pay bills. It seems the longer I go without posting the harder it is to get up the energy to post, as its kind of like where do I begin, same thing with some very special frinds of mine that I rarely talk to and then it seems like too much of a daunting task, and what do I say, i chaged a lot of shitty diapers today. But things are moving right along here. We have had two fabulous visitors first Aunt ali followed by my mum/ Gannie last week. Unfortunatly when ali was here i did not take nearly enough photos but here are a few from when my mom was here.