its time

So I write this post with many many emotions... and can not really even begin to write many of the thoughts. But tonight I will nurse Maddox for the last time. Quite possibly nurse for the last time ever in my life. However, its time. I need to stop and be done. I want to stop, I really don't like it for many reasons but I also get nostalgic towards the end... and this time around the end is so much sooner then it was with Ava. But Maddox is huge and eats so much and likes the bottle and formula. I know breast is best... I do I do and I did it for 2 days shy of six months and I pray that Maddox stays healthy and continuing to thrive, however I think I can be a better mama if i put the boobs away. so we will see how it goes. And well then its time to reclaim my body as of the morning.