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i am here.... we are alive and doing well. maddox is crawling everywhere, so curious and just so so so sweet. He is a doll. Ava is growing up so fast we are so proud of the little person she has become. I am sorry I dissapeared from the whole blogging scene but I really intend to be back for real. Sometimes when you dont do it for so long you dont know where to begin when you start again so then you continue putting it off. However, I hope to get much more regular since Maddox does not even have a baby book. Nursing... done, left both my babies to go to NC and see my family - my wonderful, crazy, honest, smart, and dear grandmother (dad's mom) passed away, but never been away from both of them for more then a couple hours, Hazel (k's mom), Tom (k's dad)and Keegan did great... not a tear was shed casue mom was not around, ava started soccer and loves it, shenaniganz is killing it right now (always have to be careful cause tomorrow it could be dead but to date its rocking and we are hoping to start a second one, keegan is working a lot but trying to find a balance and include gym, kid time, golf (very occasionally), us time, and time to pursue second shenaniganz options, i am really happy to be done nursing and am getting excited to do swim team agian this summer ( i cant believe we are getting to that time again) and life is moving by fast. yeah holy shit i will be 29 next week. anyway i will post pictures soon. xoxoxo glad to be back